I wrote this a while ago and thought I’d share it…
Broken. People think they break after one event. But they don’t. They crack. We’re like ceilings. Let me explain. When a ceiling starts to crack you might not even realise at first. But it’s there. Then after time the crack or cracks get larger. And that’s when it’s a problem. The weight from above is way to heavy and causes the physical cracks. People might not even notice at first. But if you see that ceiling everyday your notice the cracks. Some people who don’t come round your house a lot might not even see it. But once you do you obviously think of reasonable thing. ‘I’m gonna get that fixed’ But as soon as you know it days turn to weeks. Weeks turn to months. And cracks don’t just fill them selfs. They don’t just stop if you don’t help. So they continue to grow. However some people might think logically and go to the attic and move some of the unnecessary weight. Leaving the cracks there but making sure they can’t get any worse. But then you realise there’s no one else to put them on so you just chuck them back on to your ceiling giving an sympathetic look. But this time the ceiling isn’t as strong as before. It’s more sensitive. The weight it could handle before is suddenly pushing it to breaking point. The cracks run all across ceiling. How could anyone possibly miss this?
Then maybe after you add access weight or maybe out of nowhere, the final crack appears. And the ceiling and all the torturous weight collapses. Resulting in a huge crash and the pieces of the ceiling attacking the floor below. The ceiling was gone. When you arrive to the scene. It shocks you. It shocks you big time. Seeing what was so strong for so long now in pieces splattered on the floor around you. Some people could get upset, disappointed or even angry. Many not just angry at the ceiling but at them selfs as they saw the cracks but decided they will fix it another day. But another day was too late.
The ceiling is gone which means now you have to replace it. Now this is where we and the ceiling are different. Ceilings. Once they have broken down into pieces, you can just go to a shop and pay to replace it. But people can’t be replaced. When a ceilings gone it’s not a huge deal. Yes you may be angry having to pay a lot to get repairs. But you can repair it. Whereas people once there gone there gone. No matter how many repairs you are willing to pay for. They will never work. Cause it’s too late. And you’d think the rate of a ceiling breaking and a person would be extremely different. But there not.
However this isn’t always the case, some people fix there ceiling in time with filling. Some actually do remove the weight and don’t give it back. Some actually help in time. Some…
It’s rather sad actually. How many cracks people just don’t notice. How many times the ceiling gave various signs. Maybe if we just took extra notice. But, what do I know about fixing ceilings, I’m no acoustical carpenter. All I know is that I hope the next ceiling stronger. Especially as the weight is now going to fall on to its shoulders. But, hey what’s one ceiling? Two even? Just get a whole new house. It’s not like anyone truly cares anyway. Cause who could care about a ceiling. It’s just expected to carry weight. It’s what it’s build for right. To carry the weight of above. No matter how heavy….
Becoming broken isn’t just in one event. It’s over time. Of being strong and having to carry to much weight. Being broken is little bits of pain being sprinkled over time. Becoming broken isn’t just one colossal bang. It’s the cracks.
Down below is a video of me reading this…
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